Thursday, August 19, 2010

Homesick

I'm feeling homesick.  My arthritis is bothering me, and all the stairs in my house are so painful to get up and down and I'm missing my sweet house back in California.  Everything on one level.  So nice!

And I'm missing being near family.  My parents and sister were only 70 miles away, and Stan's sister was just a twenty minute drive from us, his parents only three hours away.  I didn't appreciate the proximity until I was too far away.

And I'm feeling homesick for my old ward too.  I wasn't the old lady in the ward then.  Of course that was over ten years ago, so who knows how it would be now? 

I had a job I just loved working in a high school library and I still miss that.  The kids, the teachers and staff, and of course the librarian I worked with.  It was a dream-come-true job for me and leaving it was just as hard as leaving my family and friends and my old house.

I miss going to the beach, the briney smell of the shore and the sound of seagulls crying as they fly overhead.  And the redwoods.  That musty smell and the coolness in their shade.  The aroma of eucalyptus trees along the damp roads leading over the hills to San Juan Bautista. 

But home is Colorado now.  So am I feelilng homesick or nostalgic?

I guess I'm just feeling blue.

4 comments:

Rach said...

I'm sorry you're feeling blue. Man, I didn't ever live in California and you're making me miss it! I know how you feel though. Yesterday my brother's wife had her ultrasound and everyone was excited and celebrating and I felt so left out here in Colorado (all of my family is in Texas but me). I miss Texas sometimes - the breadth of it, the ability to feel like you can see forever with no mountains getting in the way, the mild winters, getting together with my family and old friends - but I love Colorado too. Anyway, sorry about the longest comment ever. Let me know if you need anything, or if I can cheer you up in some way. Seriously, call me for ANYTHING my friend!

Mel said...

Oh Maureen. I totally understand how you feel. I have days like that and it is so hard. In fact being back in CA last month really made me miss it even more now that I am home again. It will always be home "in my heart"!
What can we do to cheer you up????? Ice Cream always works for me--want some?

Tiffany said...

Your sweet post made me feel grateful to be so blessed to live close to my birth place and my family. I'm so sorry that you are blue. I wish that I could help :)

COKE FAMILY said...

Oh how I miss California at times too. Then I go back and drive in the traffic or visit a Walmart. It gets all better after that! At least we have Jack in the Box now so you try to get the feel of home! Hope you're feeling better. We're glad your here!